Thankful for the Adventure!

I went to a visitation last night... the visitation was for a former classmate of mine. We were not friends, but as classmates we had known eachother for many years and had classes together and lockers near eachother... so obviously this man was way too young to die at 28 years old. That in itself is sad enough... on top of it he lost his wife tragically in a vehicle accident a few years ago. The saddest part of his story however, is that he leaves behind a 5 year old son... parentless.

As a mother this really hit me. I have lost a child... granted I only met him briefly, and through all of the grief it was hard to even process that. I can't even imagine losing one of my boys at this point or my husband for that matter. I can't imagine what their lives would be like if I wasn't here. I don't even want to think about it, but with the events of the last week I have been thinking about it alot and as I started this blog, I have been able to reflect on the things that have happened in my life and in my life with my husband over the past 4 years.

Lately everytime I get dressed in nice clothes, Pete asks me if I am going to a funeral... sadly that seems to be the only time I get dressed up lately. My poor guy has had to deal with so much death in his short life... it is so hard to shield him from it. He knows about God and Heaven and who is up there and he talks about it alot. We pray every night and pray for all of our loved ones and those that are watching over us now. And we do what we can to assure him that we love him and that we aren't going anywhere and will be here for him.

Unfortunately I don't know if that is true... I don't know what the future holds! It is so scary, but I believe in God and Heaven and that we will see our loved ones again some day and that when someone dies it is not goodbye, but simply see you later. And unfortunately we don't know how much later! I am hoping to have an extremely long life! I have a lot to do and I am not done doing it! I plan on growing old with my husband and enjoying our kids (hopefully there will be more than just the 2) and I want to enjoy grandchildren! I haven't seen everything I want to see or go everywhere I want to go!

So I have been thinking about life and what might lie ahead and reflecting on the past. I am reminded to be thankful that I am alive and mostly well... I am thankful for my wonderful husband Greg and so blessed to be his wife and the mother of his children. My little miracles... I am so thankful for them as well... I had to fight to get them here and I am cherishing them every day! Some days all of the chaos and events of the day cloud my thankfulness, but it is still there and a simple "I love you Mommy" or a hug or an incredibly slobbery kiss clear up the clouds and I am reminded how thankful and blessed I truly am. I can't wait for all of the new adventures headed my way!